Merry ChRIZZmas
This year, the one gift the kids could count on was burnt food from good ‘ol mom, and (humble brag), I knocked it out of the park. May your hearts, homes and bellies be full, with the only thing that matters, our love for each other. And ourselves. We got this. Figuring it out together, doing the best we can with what we have, at the time. Right? Two hours at a time. Sometimes that’s all we can do. The next right thing @glennondoyle I don’t know how to do little things, like work a stove, or create a social media post. But tonight, I do know how to love, and my heart is full.
And my therapist is a txt away, if needed (which is always, but not right now). Bc I got this. And when I don’t got this? I can ask for help. Because I don’t have to be all the things to all the people, all of the time, as it turns out. I can’t and I forget that sometimes. (Truth be told, and this is shocking, not everybody even WANTS me to be all the things, all of the time. I can be a lot lol.) I am loved, and I am grateful, and I am held, and I am here. That’s enough. It’s all I need and all I could ask for. @mlpadman , @daxshepard hermian Permian have brought me joy when I needed it the most, @laura_mckowen your words, @holly you, finding yourself, showing me how to be alone, but not. @mattbayswriter teaching me about love, sobriety/the purpose of life, as you discover it along the way. @andreagibson your poetry, the noise in my ears, and the salve to my wounds in the moments that feel like the Most. @brandicarlile @pink you are the soundtrack to my life and my kitchen, Brandi and Glennon... The Christmas experiences that you have shared, the love you offer the world...It’s how I know what family is, and love feels like, in all its beautiful, painful, tangly, perfectly imperfect ways. To all of you, who’s day was full of joy and loved ones, and to you, who’s maybe just making it through ‘til bedtime with your favorite, furry flea bag - you did it, and I’m glad you’re here too. Merry ChRIZZmas, as my teens would say. He is RIZZen. Or something like that.